Discovering Self: The Poetry of Life -My new book is now available!

 

 I am happy to say my new book (my 12th!) is finished! For me, this is a great way to finish the year and to begin the new year with "a new ream of paper."

     Love is the most vital lesson we are created to learn as human beings. Seeking to learn is a behavior of love, which begins with discovering self. I learn every day that I live. Learning helps us to accept more of the challenges in our life with a smile. I marvel when I listen to people who have not been taught, or have not yet learned, that life is for learning, and that learning is a joy to our soul and spirit. I have spent my life engaged in the gift of learning what it means to be human, and there is no end in sight. There is always more for us to learn, and sharing the truth of what we learn begins with us. We can only teach or share knowledge that we have learned and lived.

     We live in order to learn to love. The trinity of love--living, learning, and loving--is the dance of our internal self (our mind, emotions, and senses). The image of love is the image of discovering self, which makes it the first image we are designed to seek as human beings. Discovering love makes us happy to be alive, which inspires learning. We have to discover self as we discover love before we can understand self and life. Discovering Self: The Poetry of Life is my way of sharing an image of my own exploration and understanding of life and its poetry. I love poetry that shows us the challenge of our own existence. The introduction to our own growth and self-discovery is understanding poetry. Poetry guides us through the physical drama of living to expand into the beauty of life. The poetry of life is the truth of healing for our soul, which is the joy of our spirit.

Love is the truth of us. Learning is an expansion of self.

     I hope that we each discover new depths of our true self as we open our minds and hearts to learning to love more truthfully, more beautifully, in 2016. I hope you will read my new book, and remember I welcome readers' feedback! To purchase Discovering Self, click the Lulu link below.

 Happy holidays and let's make 2016 a great year to be on Earth.

A Natural Order of Progression - the Fruit does not grow before the Tree

Our challenge is to keep our search in the order of the microcosm, mesocosm, and macrocosm, because we cannot understand Earth or the Universe until we undestand us and our relationship to our support system. Exploring what we do not understand, before we have an understanding of who we are, can destroy our support system. Understanding is the symbol of our growth and it must follow a natural order of progression. Look at nature and you will see that the fruit does not grow before the tree. Exploring reality in any other order is looking external to ourself as an ego perception of our ability. Living in our humility, we know that we do not have to use every ability that we have, to know that we have it.

Soul Support

In the intimate family of birth and of marriage there are always chosen lessons that each person is focused upon. No one learns his/her lessons in life alone. The person that we have asked as a soul to help us with a life lesson is also working on the same lesson, although the image of the lesson may be different. We can learn our lesson and our parents may bring their lesson back  into their next lifetime without a consciousness of the role they were playing for us and therefore they didn’t learn the lesson. The nice thing about family relationships is we can learn from each other if we are open to the dual role of teacher and student and student and teacher. This is the perfect role because it keeps us open to knowledge without the restrictions and limitations of identity and roles to create inequality.  The soul has no expectations or destinations of having learned all there is to learn. It is always our ego beliefs that limit our mind with expectations and destinations.

As we discover how our souls support each other in evolution, we can consciously appreciate every event within our life because we will see the importance of what we are learning and we will not judge or blame the person that we are interacting with in the lesson. Our soul is supported  not only by our physical family on a soul level but also by the soul family  on a soul level. Even when we have no conscious awareness of the soul family and its support, it is still there and it is scattered throughout the universe. Soul energy is given to us telepathically as a love energy, which is more effective than the physical support that we may be conscious of being given at the time. The physical interaction will be the primary support that we consciously acknowledge because we live our support as part of our life experience.  (395-6, Journey Home)

The Sword and the Pen

If man will look at his own life, he will find indications of physical changes that coincided with spiritual changes internally. The physical world of man is designed to create restriction. Opening to the Universal Consciousness is an embracement of freedom. This freedom consciousness will always find symbolic freedom within the physical world.

During this period of expansive spiritual evolvement which my scribe experienced, she had two very significant dreams. She was working through her resistance in her sleep, in her everyday physical world, and in her mind as she increased her silence. My scribe has never fully subscribed to any belief system. This made her more open to the inner self and higher self from birth.

She had learned to deal with her soul memories and her multiple sensing capabilities. She had not only learned to accept her guides but she found them to be friends who were always there to guide and teach her. She had accepted them  in her life from the moment of birth and didn’t truly understand for many years that not everyone had invisible friends. To her they were very practical. She saw them and assumed that everyone else did. 

When man opens to the Universal Consciousness, he opens himself to the integrated energy of the spirit world. Within this energy there is understanding , there is freedom, there is liberation, there is light, and there is infinite space. This infinite space is a sense of infinite height, depth, and expansiveness that can’t be adequately described in your language. In physical terms the Universe would feel as expansive as the world that you understand.

In the physical world the consciousness is narrow and personal. It is confined within the physical body. It is seen as a world of you and you relate your world to your career, your friends, and your family. If you do not allow anyone else in your world, if you are not close to friends, family, or colleagues, your personal physical consciousness is even more restricted. If you are constantly forcing your body into a tighter and tighter physical restriction, you are forcing the inner you into a tighter and  tighter physical restriction. You are struggling physically, mentally, and spiritually. This is the physical symbolism of restriction. You are not open to BEING.

As my scribe received communication from me, she began her expansion process. This has taken place over many years of her life. The first dream occurred many years ago and I will relate it to you because it will help some of you with the understanding of the readiness within you to expand to the Universal Consciousness.

In my scribe’s dream she found herself in this huge open expanse of a structure that resembled an airport hangar. There was a round dome-like metal structure.  She was alone in this structure and her entire body was bound tightly with string. She saw herself as very minute in this huge ball of cord which was wrapped around and around her countless times.

Suddenly, this genie appeared by her side and handed her a sword with which to cut her strings. She took the sword and examined it carefully. To her it looked very strange because it was not like any sword that she had ever seen before. It was long, thin, and had feathers at one end.

After a moment she decided that she could, indeed, cut the strings with this strange looking sword. So she began her task, one string at a time, until finally the string fell away from her body and lay in fragments at her feet.

With the strings lying around her feet, she felt her body beginning to expand. It grew slowly until it reached her normal  size. She stood still for a moment, turning around and around in this expansive, open structure. She felt liberated and free.

Suddenly she realized that she was all alone. It felt good for a few moments but she knew she wasn’t ready to live her life in this expansive emptiness. She look around carefully at the walls until she found what she assumed was a door. 

As she started to walk toward the door she sensed that there were millions of people waiting for her just beyond the opening. She felt their hostility and their anger. She knew without a doubt that each and every person was carrying a weapon.

 She started laughing and walked up to the door.  As she opened the door, she saw millions of people with their weapons forming a double line in front of her. The liens were deep with people as far back as she could see.

She stepped through the door and started walking among the people. As she walked, she talked to them and smiled at them. One by one they laid down their weapons and began to  return her love with their own greetings.

As my scribe continued to work with me in her sleep and her conscious state, we discussed this dream. The dream was her physical interpretation of the spiritual evolution that she was undergoing to do the work that she is now doing.

The airport hangar was the Universal Consciousness. The strings were her physical resistance. The sword was the method of releasing the resistance or the strings from her body. The sword was later seen as a quill pen which was symbolic of our writing. The people that were waiting for her with weapons were the physical concerns that she had about people accepting the work that we would do. 

This dream was a reoccurring dream for many years. As the details of the dream changed they were always symbolic of the internal changes that she had made.  

(from Bridges of Consciousness, 85-88)

A Way of Life

We have taken to heart some parts of Spiritual Philosophy that we're attracted to, but we ignore those we are not interested in living at the present moment in time. This means that we will choose not to live our Ethical Values. Living our Ethical Values is how we live a Spiritual life. We cannot love ourself or other people from the core of our Spiritual love until we learn to love ourself, which is the beginning of being love as a human being.

We cannot live from the core of our love until we learn to live the Ethical Values as a "way of life," which creates us as a Spiritual being.

The Emotional Lessons Confronted in Family Relationships

It is a belief in our world that the male should be strong and therefore not show emotion. This is a belief that family relationships challenge. If the male fails to show emotion, he denies his soul and spirit energy. If the female fails to show emotion, she denies her soul and spirit energy.

Family relationships offer the male an opportunity to be in touch with the soul and spirit energy of emotion. If the male denies the family relationship, he is denying the challenge of emotion. He is creating resistance to his soul and spirit energy within. This is also true of the female, but the male is used as an example because of the belief system in our culture that creates a learned resistance.

Some people who fear emotion will also fear family relationships, friends, and all other interaction with people. These people become the criminals in our world because they act without emotion. They live without emotion. They deny the soul and spirit energy within and they react only as physical beings. They do not love themselves and therefore they have no love for other people. These are lessons that are confronted within family relationships. If the denial remains as the controlling force within the physical life, the physical life will be focused upon fear of interaction secondary to the fear of emotion. These people will easily indulge in physical crimes against the physical body.

The total absence of feelings and emotions of the heart allow physical atrocities as lessons.In the spirit sense this is a choice of both participants, although this is a challenge for us to understand. If we observe the murders in our world, we will find many of them occur between family members or friends. The spirit energy of unconditional love agrees to the lesson which will trigger the emotion within. The event may even be chosen as a Karmic lesson for both participants. Understanding the lesson will balance the emotion within for all passive participants. This safety net of unconditional love is much stronger than our imagination is capable of understanding.

Personal Creation

There is no mystery to our lives. We have always been the same soul and spirit that we are today. The only difference is the focus of our mind and emotions. As human beings, we are created as a dual soul of male and female consciousness. In our male consciousness we have not been aware that we have a female consciousness and a Spirit consciousness that are guiding us every moment of our lives. As we change to our female focus, we become conscious of the actualization of our dual soul consciousness. What has been concealed from us is revealed to us as we integrate with our female consciousness. In our female consciousness we can access our Spirit consciousness. We can never access our Spirit consciousness while we live in our limited male consciousness of the intellect and ego because of our limiting and concealing beliefs.

As we remove our concealing beliefs that we have created from our ancient and primitive superstitions, symbols, myths, and rituals, we reveal the beauty and power of our Trinity of consciousness. Expanding our consciousness by removing our beliefs is just the beginning of our consciousness expansion. As we live our love we create a different life on earth. We begin to nurture ourselves, each other, our planet Earth, nature, and we will also begin to nurture our relationship with the universe. As we understand ourselves, we will understand the universe.

As we open to the realization of ourselves and our connection with the universe, we will define the universe from the fractal pattern of our consciousness and physical design. We are a precise fractal pattern of the universe. As we begin to understand our cellular structure the pattern of our life will reveal the secrets of the universe. As we understand ourselves and open to the knowledge of the universe, we will put to rest all of the illusions that our immature male consciousness has created as its illusions of reality.

Our interpretation of the physical experiences of our life have all been formed from our limited intellect and ego. Our beliefs have mutated our experiences and given us a concealed or veiled impression of ourself and our reality. We have created everything on Earth from the thoughts that live within our mind and that are limited by our beliefs and fears. Once we have a thought our next step is to create the thought as our physical reality. Therefore each and every thing that we use today as the fruits of our technology began as a thought in someone's mind. When we create from our beliefs and our fears, we create illusion or we conceal our behavior and our creation. This is the story of our criminal minds. Each day we live with the creations of technology that had its foundation in the thought of some clever and advanced soul mind.

All things on Earth began with thought, even the creation of new life. In our male consciousness, new life was triggered by a physical desire for sex. In our female consciousness, our love created the new life into human form and then nursed the child into an expansion of the mind, emotions, and body. Therefore, we have constantly lived with the precise pattern of creation. There is no mystery left to the creation of human life. What we continue to conceal with our religious beliefs is the soul's constant return to its eternal life in physical form. Our belief in only one life limits our perception of reality as our personal creation.

Self-Assessment, Our Internal “Secret Life,” Ego Imaging

When we realize that self-assessment is our path to change and growth, we will no longer fear being truthful with ourselves as we see the negative thinking and behaviors that are holding us back from our growth and change.  Negative behaviors are a challenge for our Dual Soul thinking mind to change.  We have become very familiar with our physical traits and our personality traits that have served us in our physical lives.  Shifting our thinking mind as our Dual Soul into our loving emotions that allows us to live our Ethical Values is our present-day challenge.  We must live our intention to change before we can actually change, and we must remember that our ego is not about truth, love, and equality. 

Our ego will always continue to make us believe that we have changed and that we are now being loving, responsible human beings, even as we lie, cheat, and copy other people.  Many times we mistake manipulation for love. Manipulation is a form of control which we can use with our friends and family and sincerely believe that we are living our love.  In our self-assessment, we must learn to be truthful with ourselves and release our belief that we are perfect as we are, before we can welcome and accept change within ourselves.  Any time that we live with an external perception of life, our thinking mind is manipulating our thoughts and behaviors without our being conscious of the imaging that is taking place in our own physical reality.  As energy beings we remember our past lives, where we have lived, the people that we know, our inequality, separateness, control, judgment, inadequacy, dependency, and manipulation, plus many other negative behaviors. 

 As our thinking mind attempts to always “have its way,” we will bring ancient imaging back into our present day life as our normal behaviors, and we will not have the insight to become conscious of what we are doing.  Therefore if we deny our own controlling behaviors, we will feel certain that no one else will be conscious of our internal “secret life” that is urging us into negative behaviors to fulfill our survival needs.  This manipulation of energy fields that belong to another person is a symptom of our internal fear, which we are attempting to deny as an image of our own energy.  Once we live in fear of our own energy, we will attempt to copy another person’s energy and walk in that person’s shadow.   Energy can always be seen by people who see energy.  Thinking that we can hide our behaviors as an energy vampire is ludicrous for anyone that understands energy.  People who think they are perfect as they are ignore intentional change from birth to death.

Our Journey Into Love

Many people think they are living the truth while they are lying, cheating, and stealing. We don’t see learning to live truth as a lesson. And we don’t see the other aspects – lying, cheating, and stealing – as lessons. These are patterns of acting out rebellion within the soul. Some people don’t seem to know there is such a concept as truth. Truth for our soul is a truth we have to learn and live through our physical experience.

There are all levels of truth. But truth lives within us, not totally external to us. How do we choose what we want to learn? We of course choose it with soul influence, but we also choose it with the influence of our heart, the emotional self. It behooves each and every one of us to learn about and to live our emotional self.

As human beings we are designed with three distinct parts: our mental and emotional self, physical self, and sensory self. These three parts of us reflect into the world the particular thoughts, behaviors, and actions of who we are. No one can escape the patterns they create and reflect to the world without their own intention being used.

Our life is designed through love. If we do not understand the love within, how can we reflect the love within externally to us? If everyone lived their love, we would erase most of the problems we create and encounter as human beings on Earth.

The emotional self is in reality the foundation of us as human beings.  We have a tendency to think that we are physical and nothing else, but of course that is not true. We are first of all energy, and part of our energy is our emotional soul. If we do not understand this pattern, we will abuse it and attempt to destroy it within our mind. It is as though we were using a cleaning system on the mind to take away the good and reinforce the bad.  If we want to be human we must first be human in our understanding and conduct (Ethical Values). If we do not understand ourselves as a soul, a spirit, and a physical being, obviously we are denying and not using vital parts of our design.

Learning to live within our entire design helps us to be more human, more conscious, and it helps us to design our life in a happy and healthy way. We must understand ourself if we want to learn and live the journey into love.

Once Upon A Time

Once upon a time there was a prince and a princess. They were not born of the same family but in many ways they could have been. The princess loved the prince with all her heart and soul. So much so that she grieved for his absence. The prince loved the princess very much too – but he was a man – and he couldn’t understand how he could love the princess as much as he loved himself. That wasn’t what he expected of love, so he began to think, to think of her as being too close to really love as a man should love his princess. So she became his sister and he spent time with her and cared for her but he was afraid to truly love as he knew a prince was meant to love a princess.


One day his princess was crying in her grief and the prince ran out of his castle to the top of a hill.  He looked up at the sky and opened his arms to the heavens.  Loneliness was in his voice as he shouted in frustration at the stars. At once his fairy godmother tapped him on the shoulder.


“Don’t despair my prince – life is as you want it to be. When you view the princess as part of you then you must love yourself before you can accept the love you have for her. But you are worthy of your own love too my fine prince. See how your kingdom loves you. You are perfect and beautiful in every way. When you can see it then the princess will never need to grieve again and neither will you.”


With that thought trailing in the air behind her the fairy godmother disappeared into the dark night and the prince found himself alone again on the dark hill.  The loneliness suddenly wrapped him in its heavy arms and he shivered. Thoughts of the princess flashed into his mind and he felt warm again and safe. She really wasn’t part of him after all, he decided. She wouldn’t be lonely – not like he was lonely. She would only grieve for a lifetime, silently, but he would be the one to cry.


He stood there in the night and thought of how each of them would be less without the other and he began to feel warm and safe. He smiled, laughing because he had never seen it before. They were truly special people but more different then he had ever realized. They could never be the same because she was female and he was male. He wasn’t making love to himself but to her when he expressed that love. Then he could truly love himself for knowing the difference. And he could truly love her because now it was all right.


The prince turned and ran down the hill slipping and sliding in the wet grass. He couldn’t wait to find his princess and say for the very first time, with all his heart and soul –


I LOVE YOU.