Integrity - The Authentic Self

We all want to find ourselves but many people don’t know how – therefore we can create a fictional role for ourselves and literally set out to put our role in place physically.

          When we become conscious that we are playing roles, we will usually stop and look at ourselves. We want to be sincere as we live the image of self, but how can we be sincere and truthful about who we are, if we do not know who we are? So we play roles, which covers up the integrity of our Spirit Consciousness as we establish “images” of who we think we are or who we want to be.

          Playing a role requires imagination and quick thinking to keep yourself from falling on your face. We make ourselves who we are by the way we think, behave, speak, and interact on our stage of life. We can never blame another person for the level of our reality that we create. Yet we only want to accept personal responsibility for those things in our life that support our personal image of who we think we are.

Human Consciousness - Our Most Valuable Asset

Spirit is a level of taking one's inspiration, one's dreams, one's brilliant ideas and putting them into action in the physical world.  In understanding human consciousness you must understand that spirit can only be understood when it is manifested through the actions of your physical life. You do not evolve to live in physical form as spirit beings; you evolve in physical form to act as spirit beings in the physical world. Do you understand?

The evolution of human consciousness has a level of pure spirit. In this level of returning to the energy of the Creator you still have many, many levels of consciousness to walk, to evolve.

As you have spent many billions of years evolving your thoughtforms, your physical body, your soul memory and your spirit through the dark side of the soul, through the physical side of the soul, you will now have the opportunity and the responsibility for living as integrated consciousness upon earth, creating for yourself a heaven to enjoy, a heaven to expand into your true magnifi­cence, using the power of spirit in the physical manifestation of physical life.

It is a pattern within the mind of the intellect that separates the human con­sciousness into the physical, the soul and the spirit, and does not see that it is one at all times and it is one with earth and it is one with the Creator. Earth is the manifestation of the physical. Your physical being is forever dependent upon the purity of the energy of earth.

Your soul is dependent upon your lessons, your experiences, and your events— all coming together to help you learn the lessons of evolution, the lesson of changing the level of human consciousness. And as you change the level of human consciousness through the energy of the consciousness of the soul, it becomes pure in love, in truth and in the perfection of the lesson at that time. It evolves into spirit energy.

All lessons must begin in the physical and move into soul and into spirit—which then must be manifested upon earth, completing the cycle of energy of learning to be human.

The human consciousness is your most valuable asset in your evolutionary cycle. It will protect you; it will inspire you; it will motivate you; it will elevate you; it will allow you the wisdom and the ingenuity to create what you want if you understand the focus of your own human consciousness. This consciousness must work in unison with the collective consciousness of humani­ty; and it must work in unison with the collective consciousness of earth; and it must work in unity with the collective consciousness of spirit.

You are integrated into energy streams and you cannot be separated from each other or self. When the human consciousness understands self as separate as did the human consciousness when it looked at breath, when it looked at vision, when it looked at separate parts of the human body and focused upon that part as a god of human form—it began the concept, the pattern of separation.

This pattern must be changed, must be released to understand that you are a Higher Universal Mana, integrated at all times within self and within the Universe and within the mesocosm of community, of world, of nation. And you are at all times integrated into the energy of earth.

This is your heritage: it cannot be separated from your human consciousness because it is the heritage of the consciousness of earth that allows you to be human. You must understand, acknowledge and use in unity these three consciousness energies of the mind in order to fully become human upon earth, to become a Higher Universal Mana consciousness.

Starting from Birth is the Ideal Time and Place

Building of the body begins at conception. This first period of Earth existence for us is laying the foundation for the remainder of our physical lives. We are placing our building blocks. We will use these building blocks in the continued growth of our body, mind, and Spirit. There is no other way. We start creating our reality the moment we are born. The Soul that enters as an infant is aware of the lessons of its life. The understanding of these lessons starts to dissolve gradually as the belief system is being structured. The older the child becomes the more clouded its choice of lessons will become. We must learn to consciously keep the channels open to the infant Soul memories. Our world is becoming better at this.

An infant will be in constant communication with the Universal Consciousness. Communication is a reality through infancy but starts to fade during the years from four to seven. Parents should encourage the child to stay open to the Spirit communication of his or her world. This communication needs to be understood and supported. Communication with the Souls of friends and loved ones does not mean that the child needs to see a psychiatrist. The child must be supported in understanding the normal Spirit communication that he or she is capable of living on Earth as a direct reflection from his/her past human lives. Open-mindedness is a trait to be cherished and consciously preserved. Starting from birth is the ideal time and place. Picking up these lessons in mid-life becomes a challenge within itself. Releasing a firmly planted belief system is the challenge to understanding life in the adult mind. Cherish our infants, love them, communicate with them and allow them the freedom of expression. This does not mean that the adults must be controlled by the child. A disciplined structure should be provided in which they can feel safe in being their own imaginative selves. Discipline and structure are truly manifestations of love. We should all love our children, and guide them into a loving adult life.

The Journey Home

As we become aware of ourselves, other people, nature, earth, and the universe, we expand our conscious awareness of the relationship that exists between all of us as living beings that are evolving. We release our subconscious fears and begin to love our life and ourselves as we expand our consciousness of our internal wisdom, truth, love, and equality.

In traditional medicine, technology now allows physicians to "photograph" radiologically the body and the brain into extremely thin slices to detect disease as well as the function of the human body. Our consciousness also exists in extremely thin levels of electromagnetic energy that are just beginning to be detected but are not yet understood by science. Science can now find people who use their left brain and others who use both the left and right brain to a degree. For many years we have been living the transition from our left brain to our right brain, and as the technology of science expands, our understanding will expand and we will soon be able to validate the transition that we are experiencing. We could be understood now if the perception of the scientific mind understood the invisible soul and spirit consciousness.

The Beginning of Change and Growth

Living our truth is the essence of us as human beings who want to grow, change, and prosper in our physical lives. Love, truth, and equality are the structure of our physical body, thinking mind, and human emotional design, and we cannot live truth without constructing our mind into an equal thinking and emotional design that functions smoothly in the adaptability of our human life. Asking ourselves who we are and who we want to be is the beginning of change and growth. But the secret of this exercise is being truthful with ourself and the challenges that we have not faced as we have lived this life. Everyone has some challenges, even if we have denied them and stuffed them into the recesses of our brain. Our lessons are very apparent to other people as a general rule, but we can look at ourselves throughout an entire lifetime and not be capable of seeing and identifying the lessons we do not know and may be trying to learn.

How do we access the soul consciousness, the inner self from within the physical world?

If man can open his mind to the understanding of the infinite, he will cease to know fear. Releasing fear allows the eternality of love to enter. It allows acceptance of the infinite, inner self and the enfinite, higher self.

Acknowledging the inner self brings a peaceful calmness that will prevail at all costs within your life. Peace and calm will prevail because you will accept the perfection of the consciousness energy of man on a Universal level. Acknowledging the higher self will allow joy to overshadow all other emotions. When you are faced with sadness within the physical world, you will know and understand the peace and joy of the soul and spirit consciousness in evolution.

How does man access the soul consciousness, the inner self from within the physical world? This is not the “quick fix” process that man loves. It must be approached with enthusiasm, joy, and diligent effort. You must become an inner explorer who is willing to look at SELF objectively and without judgment. 

First, man must have the will and intent to be open which will allow him to look at himself objectively and without judgment.  He must understand that he is more than a physical being. He must acknowledge that he has an outer being, an inner being and a higher being that is the total composite of self.

Second, man must release his belief system. This is a valuable goal that may need to be worked on as Karma for many lifetimes before it is totally successful. Releasing all beliefs allow man to stay open to the energies within SELF and around SELF. If man can release the concept of a belief system, he will not replace one belief system with another in his attempt to be open. We should always sense the information that feels true to us and examine it. If it truth from a higher level, it will be understood on a soul level. The soul understanding will become a conscious understanding, if the soul is open to hearing, feeling, and seeing.  Do not allow all information that the physical mind is exposed to, to become a belief of the conscious mind. Truth will become an understanding of the soul consciousness and will not have the restrictive properties of a physical belief. Soul understanding becomes a sense. Man will not be able to always verbalize a soul understanding. A belief is always able to be verbalized.

The external mind is the witness and can recite the witnessing as a physical reality. The internal mind is the sense of knowing. It is the knower. The inner mind is the subconscious mind, the psychic. The higher mind is the master, the integrator of all understanding. The higher mind is the unconscious mind.

The third step is to develop an inner silence. It is through the inner silence that man enters the inner mind. This inner silence allows new images, new awareness, new understandings, and a new consciousness to develop and begin its integration with the physical self. 

The Human Design of Spirit Consciousness, Part 2

We rebirth our externally focused mind as we shift into the internally focused mind that is open to integration with our female loving emotions. Our dual soul is symbolized by two circles resting next to each other. As the male mind begins its internal integration with the female loving emotions we begin to create the infinity symbol, which is the truth of our infinity as a spirit consciousness that lives eternally through its Human Design. Once we understand this symbol, we understand that death is not an end to life, but it is a new beginning of life in a new physical design. Because of our eternal life, we live many lives in both our male and female focus of the physical design, which allows our our dual soul to live the lessons from both perceptions and interpretations of life. This dual sexual images also are reflecting to us our dual soul image of the male mind and female loving emotions. We are reflective human beings by our dual soul design because until we can understand both of our reflections, we will not be able to understand our dual soul and our dual soul female loving emotions and their pattern of integration. Our sexual patterns of procreation are always showing us the importance of integrating our dual soul male mind and dual soul female loving emotions.

Our Trinity of Consciousness is the chemical design of the fractal pattern of us that is eternally related to nature, Earth, and the Universe and that we reflect into the form and structure of our physical matter as a Human Design. Because we are not consciously using our Trinity of Consciousness in the dual soul pattern of our thinking male mind, we learn to conform and to repeat what we believe to be relevant to us as human beings. This means that we have not even begun to live the unlimited potential of our thinking mind in a balanced and loving ontology of life. In fact we literally deny our personal responsibility for any and all of our physical actions, because we do not recognize that we reflect our male thinking mind into our physical behavior as a part of our Human Design, which we have the power to mutate with external chemicals that are not a part of our chemical design. Our thinking mind, loving emotions, and spirit senses are controlled by the chemicals that we routinely breathe, drink, and eat. If we are taking street drugs or pharmaceutical drugs, we are changing the true balance of our chemical pattern of spirit consciousness. Our chemical intake then reacts within our male mind, female loving emotions, and spirit senses, to interfere with the conscious awareness of our Human Design as Spirit Beings.

The Human Design of Spirit Consciousness

For some eons of time we have all been worshiping an external God. Many people today are referring to the external image of God as Spirit. Other people are struggling to understand what Consciousness is.  A common thread in the human search to understand “God” or “Spirit” or “Consciousness” is our externally focused mind that separates one concept from another than understanding the unity of all energy. Essentially God is not separate from Spirit or from Consciousness and our Spirit Consciousness is not separate from our physical body.  The secret of all humans, nature, earth, and the universe is that we are one as a chemical design. Our function is different. But our chemical design is 99.9% identical. Since science understands this concept from defining the chemical pattern of our DNA, it is important that we begin to look at the integration and unity that we are designed to share with all living matter upon earth.

Our Human Design is a chemical design first and foremost. Our chemical design is a fractal pattern of the Universe, Earth, and nature. The chemical design of us follows a beautiful pattern as a dual soul, that is created as a male mind and female loving emotions, and our infinite spirit senses that are enfolded into the physical matter of our human body. It is the trinity of our male mind, female loving emotions, and female spirit senses that create the human design of our spirit consciousness. Our spirit consciousness completes itself in its human design by enfolding its chemical patterns into the human design of our physical body. This means that as we live, we live as a quadrivium of our spirit chemical design with our male mind thinking and our thoughts being acted out by our physical design.

Our Spirit Consciousness is always a trinity of the male mind, female loving emotions, and the infinite spirit senses. Our spirit senses are the internal cellular form of the Spirit Consciousness in communication with the dual soul of our male mind that has separated itself from the female loving emotions and its conscious awareness of the spirit senses. This is why we have believed that we only have five physical senses. But our human design that has been designed through the chemical patterns of our spirit consciousness is complete in its design with the one exception of the male mind. Our physical lives have all been focused upon the expansion of our dual soul  male mind. When the male mind separated itself from the female loving emotions, it began its journey of negativity and fear. When we separate ourselves from the internal dual soul design of our loving emotions, we have no choice except to live our fear until the male mind can expand itself out of its external focus upon fear.

As we awaken our male mind to our female loving emotions, we automatically begin our internal journey into our Spirit Consciousness as the trinity of our male mind, female loving emotions, and spirit senses to gradually learn the fine art of integration and unity. As a human design, we have never been shooting stars. We must live and learn gradually as we allow our male mind to open itself to its unlimited thinking potential. As our male mind gradually opens, it begins its integration with the female loving emotions. As the male mind and female loving emotions become integrated, the dual soul gradually integrates with the spirit senses. This is the pattern of evolution for our dual soul into spirit consciousness. As we expand fully as a trinity of consciousness, we become conscious of ourselves as a Spirit Consciousness living in the chemical cellular design of our human physical matter.

Becoming One: Our Genetic Journey

From the time that we are young we search for a mother, father, or best friend. As we grow older we begin to see ourself as incomplete if we don't have a lover. The male seeks the female and the female seeks the male. The male seeks the male and the female seeks the female. What does it mean when we feel that we "need" a relationship to survive?

For our soul we are simply living the reflection of our genetic journey. It is through the physical experience that we learn, which has the power to change our genetic lessons in the next life. Our perception of genetics as being our family heritage has some validity but it is not the entire explanation. We choose our parents, which means we also choose the genetics that we need to work through our soul lessons. Our lessons are karmic for the soul, which means they are not completely learned. In becoming one with the genes that support us in our physical life, our soul continues with its genetic journey. Our genetic journey reflects into our physical journey.

We attract intimate relationships into our lives by the magnetism of our physical genetic structure. It is the interplay of relationships that continues to support our genetic structure throughout a lifetime as we become one in our mind and emotional consciousness. Our physical genetics, as part of our physical experience, is not separate from our dual soul mind and emotions or our spirit consciousness. We are one energy at all times.

We judge our self-worth by our ability to become one with another person. Our sense of unity in intimate relationships can cast an illusion of happiness over our life when deep down inside we are crying tears of loneliness. Our behavior reflects our level of growth. As our level of growth changes, our genes can jump from one chromosome to another and take on a different role within our genetic system, thus changing the pattern of our life and our behavior.

Understanding the mirror image that we cast into our relationships will help us understand why we attract the type of people into our lives who create chaos instead of unity. The shadow of our image is a magnetic energy that draws others to us in a physical unity that may not reflect the part of our mind and emotions that we truly want to attract. But our karmic soul lessons are using the magnetism of our genes that will fulfill the purpose of our soul lesson. In becoming one with another person we are being given the opportunity to help other souls with the same karmic lesson. It is the unity of like physical genes that reflects the soul connections that we live.

The major issue with our magnetic attraction is that we have been taught to attract others through the sexual attractiveness of our physical body instead of a like mind and emotion. When we focus only upon the sexual attraction we never reach mental and emotional unity, because the attraction is a fleeting sense that has no stability. Yet marriages that produce children always have a genetic purpose for our soul. When we find ourselves in frequent relationships that repeat old dramas, we become conscious of our need to look at ourself. The genes of our mind and emotions are embedded in our beliefs and fears.

Looking at ourself and our sexuality is probably the most challenging mental and emotional task that we will ever face. Old beliefs will jump to the surface of our mind, bringing up guilt, sin, fear, and perhaps even a sense of revulsion. These old beliefs have the power to send us into an emotional  shutdown that paralyzes our thinking. But we must remember that sex has had an "under the sheets" mentality until the last few decades and the genetics of our mind and emotions is holding on tightly to old beliefs. There are still many cultures that physical practice this mentality and are unable to open their minds and hearts to becoming one.

How can we possibly unite our minds when we are still struggling to unite our bodies in harmony and rhythm? Our physical reality is the reflection of our mind and emotions. In observing the separateness of the male and female, religions, sciences, our physical body by the medical profession, the belief in the separateness of our physical being, the belief in the separateness of our soul mind and emotions, and spirit consciousness, we begin to wonder how we will ever become one again. As science embarks upon genetic alterations of humans, animals, and plants we an be separated permanently from the genetic roots of our spirit consciousness and chaos will prevail. In effect, science uses microscopic approach in an attempt to dissect the details of humanity, instead of accepting the macroscopic realization that we are all one.

Healing Self

I am taking some time out of my other writing to blog for a short time. I love writing, which is what I actually do with most of my time. I am just finishing books number 9 and 10, which are both on Neural Depolarization, which is a healing technique that I use with clients and that I have used since I was an infant to heal myself. I call my technique NDP, which is short for Neural Depolarization. As an RN I have never seen a technique that is easier and more thorough than NDP, When I first moved to NC in 2004, I had two patients come to see me that were both told they would die very soon. Both patients had death staring them in the face. One patient had a huge malignant brain tumor and the other patient had a malignant liver tumor. They are both well now and healthy as they live their normal lives. I first saw both of these clients eight years ago on the verge of imminent death.

I am writing this because we have such a high instance of cancer in our world and people are dying from this disease on a daily basis. We do not have to die of cancer, but if we don’t want to die of cancer, we have to learn how to save ourselves with the foods that we eat, the water that we drink, and the air that we breathe. I have not kept track of how many people I have helped to heal themselves of cancer but it is well into the hundreds during my lifetime. To heal you must want to heal, know that you can heal yourself, and apply the rules of healing that I provide, which are a group of changes in eating, drinking, and thinking. and you must have NDP to free your body of the disease. Many men come to me with prostate cancer. This is a devastating disease for a man to endure. But prostate cancer, liver cancer, breast or uterine cancer are all fairly easy to heal especially if I can work with the disease before drugs are used or radiation is used, which adds insult to an already injured organ.

My concept of life is in the living, ----nurturing ourselves with good clean air, organic food, pure water, and good friends. Friends are a very real factor in living a long life. The second factor is happiness. The third factor is always eating as close to a true and pure nature as possible, drink only pure water, love your friends and family as you let them love you. Love in itself is a healing energy. Our healing energies come from the purity of the water that we drink, the air that we breathe, the foods that we eat, and the people that we hang out with during our lifetime. Honest and supportive family and friends are essential to our health and happiness. If we have family or friends that we cannot trust to speak truth to us they can compromise the energy of our entire life.

Lying, cheating, and stealing are all negative energies that we must protect ourselves from being around. These energies are detrimental to our health and happiness, unless we can recognize them and protect ourselves from taking on their energy as our energy. We always have the power to change our friends, but we do not have the power usually to change our family members. Although being a good example to our family and friends can create change within both our family and friends, this can require time and patience which every life is worth. Once we discover the energy of love, we can begin to live our love as our normal personality, which can easily make our life much easier for us. Caring about people and loving people are how we collect love and happiness into our life with great abundance. If we can’t love other people, we will not attract love into our life. The more love that we can feel from other people, the more love we will create to share with other people. We cannot share what we do not have within us and can freely live. Sharing love brings us many gifts of energy from the rest of the world. Love and sharing love are both ways for us to teach other people how to love us in return.

If we live with dishonesty, fear, and untruth, we are setting ourselves up to have a dramatic life. Anyone that spends their life lying, cheating, and stealing cannot be living a Spiritual life. These energy fields of lying, cheating, and stealing are all energies that we must protect ourselves from as we live in the physical world and we interact with other people. If we live our lives through lying, cheating, and stealing, we will disarm any loving energy that is within us and change our internal energy to support our lying, cheating, and stealing thinking and behaviors. Most of us are familiar with these precise levels of energy, either within our own behaviors or within other people’s behavior. We cannot be Spiritual people and live these negative behaviors at the same time. I have known many people who live these behaviors and at the same time they talk about being Spiritual, which of course can’t happen as the energies that they are living are the precise opposite energies to the loving Spirit. This helps us to understand that when we lie, cheat, and steal, we are the precise opposite of Spiritual as lethal human beings.

Lethal human beings can merrily live their lives thinking they are “Spiritual Beings,” but instead of spreading love and happiness around them, they are spreading fear, anger, and hate. The individuals that are involved in this charade are many times unaware of what they are sharing and how it makes other people feel during conversations. We should always evaluate ourselves and become conscious of the truth of our own internal energy. When we are living with fear, we will always take advantage of other people’s kindness. When we are living untruth, we will always take advantage of other people’s need to seek truth. Taking the time to sit down and write about the truth of our own behavior helps us to identify the lies that we are living and helps us to understand what we must change before we can be a Spiritual being.

Lying, cheating, and stealing are all negative behaviors and any time that we are living these behaviors we cannot live as a Spiritual Being, because our energies will be opposite energies to the Ethical loving behaviors. When we mislead ourselves about the truth of our own personal behaviors, it does not make us Spiritual, but it does make us slide downward into the negative part of our mind which prevents any Spiritual Energy being present within us as we live. Our life is always our own creation, even when we steal from other people. Living the energy of our own world is the truth of what we do and who we are. If we want to be loving Spiritual individuals, we must live our Spirituality, which means that we never at any time steal anything, lie about anything, or misrepresent ourselves as something that we are not.

We can only heal ourselves through the loving energy of our Spirit Self. As we live anger, fear, hate, or any other negative energy we are betraying our own loving energy, which will throw us off balance, make us sick, and perhaps lead to our death. We must always live the love, truth, and equality of our Spiritual Design to heal ourselves.

My Concept of Life

My concept of life is in the living, nurturing ourselves with good clean air, organic food, pure water, and good friends. Friends are a very real factor in living a long life. The second factor is happiness. The third factor is always eating as close to a true and pure nature as possible, drink only pure water, love your friends and family as you let them love you. Love in itself is a healing energy. Our other healing energies come from the purity of the water that we drink, the air that we breathe, the foods that we eat, and the people that we hang out with during our lifetime. Honest and supportive family and friends are essential to our health and happiness. If we have family and friends that we cannot trust to speak truth to us they can compromise the energy of our entire life.

Lying, cheating, and stealing are all negative energies that we must protect ourselves from being around. These energies are detrimental to our health and happiness, unless we can recognize them and protect ourselves from taking on their energy as our energy. We always have the power to change our friends, but we do not have the power usually to change our family members. Although being a good example to our family and friends can create change within both our family and friends, this can require time and patience which "life" is worth. Once we discover the energy of love, we can begin to live our love as our normal personality, which can easily make our life much easier for us. Caring about people and loving people are how we collect love and happiness into our life with great abundance. If we can't love other people, we will not attract love into our life. The more love that we can feel from other people, the more love we will create to share with other people. We cannot share what we do not have within us and can live freely. Sharing love brings us many gifts of energy from the rest of the world. Love and sharing love are both ways for us to teach other people how to love us in return.

Neural Depolarization and the Satisfaction of Healing

Hello everyone! I am sorry that I have been distracted from my blog lately because I was in the process of completing two new books on Neural Depolarization which I have been writing for a while. It does feel good to have them complete and to know that people can have the benefit of what I teach to help themselves heal many forms of disease and discomfort.  Our human body is such a delight with all of its many systems working together to make us human beings that are using our internal energy to get well.  I did this form of healing on myself when I was a very young child with Rheumatic Fever.  I healed my Rheumatic Fever, and I have proceeded to become the mother of six wonderful children and to continue living the life that I have designed for myself.

Neural Depolarization is the technique that I used as a child to heal the intense pain of my Rheumatic Fever. I have had a goal to tell this story to help other people learn how to heal themselves. I spent many years having six children, helping them to grow up and create their own lives, and I have worked as an R.N. to fulfill the other goals in my life of helping people. There is a very satisfying feeling within me when I can heal another person and watch them go on with their life and live from their loving heart. I am also trying to teach people the true meaning of their energy field and how to use it. This is a time when we begin to realize that our mind is everything, so we will not even begin to “tell a lie” or to do anything else to suppress our internal energy field, but we can expand how we use our own internal energy and use it to enhance our own life and health.

These two books bring my writing up to ten books, I think.  We can heal ourselves, and knowing how to do this is very important. I have talked about different aspects of healing ourselves in all of my books, and at the present time I also do classes in Neural Depolarization, the technique that I teach to heal our body, mind, and Spirit self.

Learning is Vital to our Growth because How We Think is Who We Are

Happy New Year!  As we begin our countdown for 2012 it is important that we begin this countdown by looking intensely at ourselves. Are we being who we want to be? Being who we want to be is not by any stretch of the imagination attempting to be someone else. Our goal is to expand our own energy into who we want to be. This is an internal exercise of our thinking mind, in conjunction with the rest of our brain and our body. We can never attempt to copy another person and be successful in our own personal growth potential, because each of us are individual people with our past, present, and future already living its human design in the precise pattern of the evolution that we have created for ourselves. If we attempt to copy someone else, we are setting an external energy in motion to abort ourselves.

When we are ignorant enough to "abort" our thinking mind, loving emotions, sensory capability, and our physical body, we are not being loving to our internal "Dual Soul and Spirit energy, and we are showing ourselves what we have not learned about our Eternal Dual Soul and Spirit energy. We learn about our own internal Dual Soul and Spirit by living our physical lives with a consciousness that never fades. It is important for us to look at every lesson that we have lived, see the wisdom of what the lesson has taught us, evaluate the lesson carefully and move it forward by several steps. We create our own reality is not just five words. These five little words are the substance and definition of our physical lives as we live them, learn from them, and consciously expand them into greater and greater levels of consciousness as our Spirit and Soul Energy are expanded and accepted. Always remember, "We are our own creation." How we think, so we are.

In the beginning of my grade school experience, I will always remember the teacher who stood in front of the class every day and greeted us with the phrase, "How we think is who we are and this is why learning is vital to our growth. My teacher's name was Ava Williams. As she taught us to think and to love ourselves I thought that her name, "Ava," meant that she was an angel teaching us how to be Spiritual or Heavenly Beings. My beliefs helped me to remember every word that she said to us, and as a six-year-old, I knew in my heart that she was speaking absolute truth, which meant that I needed to remember everything that she said. Of course her teachings related strictly to what she was supposed to be teaching us, in conjunction with State Law, but my way of thinking certainly did help my brain memorize. And the memory of this experience has always been a vital support within my thinking mind as I have grown and changed and learned to appreciate energy, especially the energy of love which comes from our Spirit Consciousness.

The Joy of Life and the Utopia of Our Solar System

Life is our Joy! Health is our Joy! Truth is our Joy! Whenever I think about the human species and the multiple levels of human energy that is prevalent in our physical reality as a human society, I have to wonder how long it is going to take "mankind and womankind" to awaken to living the Ethical Values as our Joy of Life. The Ethical Values dictate to us as human beings that we never lie, cheat, and steal if we want to be living our Spiritual Design. Anytime that anyone lives any energy that is not coming from the Ethical Values, we cast negative energy into the energy reality of Earth, which causes multiple fluctuations in the way that Earth itself functions. As each person lives their negative energy, we overpower the positive energy that all human beings should be living. When we look at the energies of lying, cheating, and stealing that many people live as their routine level of energy, we begin to see how very important it is for us to grow and change. Negative energy has a negative effect on us as human beings, on Earth, and the negative energy supports the negative energy that happens on Earth. Each of us adds to either the positive or the negative energies of Earth. Earth is designed to be the Utopia of our solar system.

Abuse Vs. Love

Our divine nature is the female energy of soul and spirit. We expand our divine nature by merging and balancing the male intellect, ego, and physical body with the female soul of wisdom and ingenuity and the spirit power of love, truth, and perfection. Becoming consciously aware of both our female and male power creates our true balance of  power. Each power is inherent within us, but the power of our female soul and spirit is not consciously recognized until the veil is removed from our merging intellect.

When we are equally balanced within our minds with our intellect, soul mind, and spirit consciousness, our physical behavior will reflect equality and balance within all facets of our individual life, our society, and our world.

Focusing upon the image of our female nature as the supreme power, or our physical nature as the supreme power, becomes an ego exercise in intellectual spiritualism. Our soul and spirit never seeks supremacy; it will always seek balance and equality. Equally balancing our inner and higher nature with our physical nature creates androgyny of mind in thoughts, words, and actions.

The mirror image of the physical reflects the separatist vision of the intellectual mind, not the integrated focus of the mind. Sexual reflection expands the physical nature that is reflected. It does not reflect or expand the soul and spirit nature that is beyond the physical level of reflection in soul evolution, although this is the illusion that is perceived. Our soul and spirit is asexual in nature. Only our physical nature is sexual.

Heterosexuality that is attached to judgement and fear is connected through karmic energy to the most primitive level of soul evolution, which can capture the soul at a lower level of soul growth than homosexuality. This attachment supports a variety of primitive behaviors, such as child abuse, cult practices, sexual aberrations, rape, mutilation, infanticide, eugenics, and zoophilia.

Sexual mates are chosen by a physical system of beliefs that determine sexual response. This can range from the arranged marriage to the instant physical attraction. In this level heterosexuality is responding from a belief and behavioral system knows as physical need, either societal or biological.

This primitive level of physical perception will act out judgement against all levels of the sexual response that do not conform to its beliefs. In the primitive belief of the intellect and ego, fear separates behavior that is different from its one specific belief to another expanded category of beliefs that is seen as unacceptable and wrong. When primitive beliefs are structured from superstition or religion, judgement will be delivered as sinful or guilty and acted out in behavior of anger, violence, and rage, which promotes rebellion in those with changing sexual feelings.

The only true power within us is the balance of power which is found by merging and equally living from our trilocular nature. We are physical body and mind, we are soul mind, and we are divine spirit.  Our physical nature is seen through our personality and behavior characteristics. What we think, speak, and do then becomes our physical nature.

If we are being guided in our thoughts, words, and actions by the female power of our soul and spirit, we will live through as understanding of our inner and higher power. Our actions will at all times reflect our love, truth, compassion, responsibility, freedom, equality, and humility. In honoring our personal female power in love, truth, and equality, we are free to honor and respect others on an equal basis.

(an excerpt from Love, Truth & Perception)

Learning Life-Saving Energy Techniques

Acknowledging our loving emotions and Spirit senses as vital parts of our original source is essential before we can use the internal ability of our thinking mind to become conscious of ourselves as an internal trinity of consciousness energy that can heal itself as a whole chemical being. We fail to recognize our healing potential because we do not understand our chemical internal design and therefore we continue to function as a fearful mind. As we release the fear chemical hormones into our Nervous System, we make ourselves sick because of these toxic chemicals.

A nurse in the hospital, or anywhere, could prevent a death or a crisis of any degree simply with a touch of the finger on the proper nerve. We are nervous system beings which describes to us the design of both birth and death and our physical life between these two events. Neural Depolarization is essentially a life-saving energy technique. learning to work effectively with our nervous system is a step forward in any Health Care Program.

Keeping Up with the Energy of Life

Every day is different and every day is beautiful, so why do we judge our life rather constantly as we complain about “what is wrong?”  Most people complain without even realizing they are in the “mood” to complain.  Why would we focus our mind on something that will not support us in our growth and change.  I have watched this phenomena throughout my life as an RN and I have always been mystified that these same people that complain rather consistently seem to become sick and many times with terminal diseases.  Are we being given a lesson of health when we find ourselves complaining and our complaints turn into some horrible disease? I have also watched happy people and invariably they create happy, active, and productive lives for themselves without any sign of disease.

When we always think of health first, we can and will create lives for ourselves that will be enjoyable and productive.  When we begin to look at how we think and how our thinking affects our daily life and our eternal life, we begin to see the value of happiness and laughter as our emotional self.  When we live with happiness in our heart and mind, we will find that life is usually being pretty good to us.  All of my life I have heard the “old saying” that we create the life that we live.  I do believe that this statement is very accurate and it helps me to constantly look at my own life and wonder why I create some of the issues that I create.

The issue of our health becoming diseased is prevalent right now.  As a nurse I am very conscious that no one has to be sick, unless we were born with disease.  Even when we are born with disease, we have the ability to create and to heal  most diseases.  I have learned first as a child with rheumatic fever and secondly as a registered nurse, that we can heal ourselves.  When I was a child, drugs were not available as they are today.  As I lived with rheumatic fever which was painful, debilitating, and incurable at the time, I learned more about my body and its reaction to living than I ever thought capable of being learned. 

One of the big lessons that I learned is that we are made from the precise food, water, and air that we put into our body.  Being dramatically focused on these concepts and eating the very best food, water, and air that nature could provide healed my rheumatic fever when I was a child, which made me so excited about life that I have been jubilant ever since.  When I was two years old I announced to my parents that I was going to be a nurse.  My parents had no clue how I knew the word nurse, let alone that I had decided to be a nurse.  But I knew about the “role” of being a nurse from my past life memory, which I shared with my parents as I chatted away like the average two-year-old.  Therefore I did not have to go through any challenges to learn who I was or what I wanted to do with my life when I  “grew” up.

I forced myself to do everything that my older sister could do and then I forced myself to do things that she could  not do very easily.  We lived on a working farm with chickens, pigs, cattle, and horses in particular.   I milked 6-8 cows every morning and every night.  My arms became very strong which made many of the other farm chores easier. Even today I am very strong for an older woman, which makes me very excited that I milked cows as a child.  This is the true meaning of  “we reap what we sow.”  As a young girl growing up on a farm, I learned a lot about work.  I was never walking the fields to plow or plant, but I learned to love farm chores.  Because I had rheumatic fever as intensely as I did, I was always guided by my parents to “do what I wanted to do and could do.”   As I continued to work on the farm, I became stronger than most girls my age, which gave me confidence that I could grow up and be healthy.

My parents had fresh oranges shipped to our house for me to eat.  They let me work, but they never made we work if I was in pain, which happened more frequently than I liked.  I loved learning about farming and I loved it when I was healthy enough to participate in the farm work.  The older I got the healthier I became, especially when my tonsils were removed at 16.  That was a dramatic turning point for me, and I began to grow into my present adult size.  This was the moment in my life when I knew without any doubt that I could become a Registered Nurse and  create what I wanted to create in my life.

My years of constant pain encouraged me to learn how to help my pain myself, which is how I created Neural Depolarization which I now use as a healing technique.  After I graduated from Nursing School and spent many years working in Nursing Administration, I decided I had worked in hospitals long enough, because I was seeing too many people suffer in pain and even die when I felt like with other forms of therapy, they might have lived.  I knew that if I worked with their body as I had learned to work with my own body, I could heal them too.  Healing was my role in life, because what I now used I did not learn in Nursing School, it was taught to me through my own thinking mind and amazingly it worked.  I had learned to work with the nervous system, which is not understood by most people, including the medical community. 

All of my life I have worked with the medical community and no one that I have ever met understood Neural Depolarization which is the therapy that I created as a young child and that I still use to this day to keep myself healthy and active.  Without the knowledge of NDP I could never have healed myself and I could not have helped other people.  The joy that I feel towards my Soul and Spirit is that it did not stop at just teaching me a physical technique, but it has given me several books of information about the nervous system within our body and how to keep it healthy and functional.  Remember that our nervous system starts with our brain and it travels throughout our human design with the express purpose of creating us as human beings.  What is not understood is that our nervous system is the truth of our eternal living consciousness, which gives us life after life to learn the ways of thinking and behavior as a human being.  Our Spirit Consciousness is the story of our Eternal Life as human beings.

I have always felt very strongly about our growth and change as human beings.  If we fail to learn in each and every life that we live, we will simply continue to live at a lower level of conscious awareness, until such time as we open our thinking mind to change.  We are energy beings first, and we are physical beings second.  Energy never dies, but it does change form. As energy beings, we live our eternal lives as one physical life at a time, to help ourself in our constant growth and change as energy beings.

Understand Self In Living: Life as the School of our Soul

Expanding our thinking mind is the best gift that we can ever give ourselves.  Our learning mind is different, but related to, our thinking mind.  Our thinking mind has the capability to expand with thought. This shows us the importance of the relationship between our brain focuses during every moment of our lives, which is intensified with thought as it develops the image of relationships and their meaning to us as a human being.  As humans we have frequently limited our relationships in our thinking mind as we have sought people of  “like mind.”  This helps us to understand that we help ourselves when we can keep an open mind and allow our intellectual mind to expand into different levels of thinking.  The more we expand our thinking mind the more we can see in life that makes total sense, as Earth is teaching us.  A well-developed mind will use its own filtering system to filter information.

I am an RN and I began nursing school when I was eighteen years old.  I have absolutely loved my life as a nurse and I have every intention of doing it again in my next life.  Nursing has given me an opportunity to understand life in a way that I could not have understood life without being a nurse.  My life has been focused on Nursing Administration and Medical Research, which have both taught me beyond my own imagination to learn about us as human beings.  My first position as a nurse was in tuberculosis research, and during that time we discovered the cure for tuberculosis which is still being used worldwide for that precise purpose today.  I was intimately involved in another research program in the 1970s that showed me the truth of us as human beings, which was HLA and DNA research. To the best of my knowledge, none of the other researchers came to the same conclusion with this research study that I did. But to me it clearly explained our human design and our plan of “eternal life.”  It also clearly explained to me the eternal nature of our life and our death with how we treat the human body.  I learned that “we are what we eat, drink, think and breathe” as the design of our human body, which controls the quality and length of our human life, as we live each and every life that we choose.        

My life experience has taught me nearly everything that I know about health.  My education has been part of my life experience that has guided my brain into a different understanding of who we are as eternal human beings.  Once we can see the chemical design of ourselves as human beings, we can understand our eternal life, and our change and growth, simply by seeing how intensely we affect our own health, life, and eternity as our personal choices of being humans on Earth.  As humans we are designed in such a way that we have the ability to balance out our internal chemicals to give us a very long life and health, or we can compromise our internal chemical balance and we can create our own diseases and death.  When we think about all of the drugs that medicine wants us to live on, rather than the natural chemicals of fresh foods, we can get a better understanding of disease and death.  Whatever we create, we will live in this life and we will bring our disease or health lessons into our future lives, which we will live until we learn the secret of health.  Health is the truth of our human design and it comes from Nature because we are a part of Nature.

Because we are a part of Nature and we receive our most important health attributes from Nature as clean air, water, and foods, this is a very basic lesson of life which most humans are not living at this point in their lives.  When we fail to live a healthy life, it means we will continue to die young and we will repeat our lessons of health in all of our future lives until we understand ourselves and our essential relationship to Nature, Earth, and the Universe.  We are chemical beings and our body is restored by the pure chemicals of Nature, Earth, and the Universe as the basic chemical design of all human beings.  Medicine does not come from a pure Nature.  It is a formula of drugs designed by science, and many of these drugs are life- saving and others lead to the destruction of life.  Our body is a smart chemical energy that knows more about our health than medicine does, and it will attempt to guide us into eating good foods even when we are not consciously focused in that direction.  

When I was a child I had rheumatic fever, and it did not take me long to understand the effect that food had upon how I felt.  I was only a child when I began to learn that good food helped me to feel good and sugary foods made me sick.  This helped me learn to eat right early in my life.  Sugar used to cause me to be very sick, and it can still affect me if I am not careful with my eating habits.  But as a nurse I have seen many people who eat only starch and sugar, and for the most part these people will be living a plethora of drama with disease.  Some people have the ability to use poor eating habits and spend half of their life without knowing what disease is, but the time will come when our eating habits catch up with our health and we become sick instead, which we have to live until we can heal ourselves.  Inappropriate eating dramatically affects every organ in our body which includes our brain and blood vessels, and we cannot live without some of these organs functioning properly. Once we understand the role of food in providing the essential chemicals that our body needs, we begin to understand the value of eating right to protect our quality of health and happiness.

Disease happens within our physical, mental, and emotional bodies as we begin to break down or lose our human integrity in the functioning unit of life.  We can heal most diseases when we eat a very fresh and supportive diet, drink eight glasses of pure water daily, and use nothing in a spray can.  We must learn to drink at least eight glasses of water daily that is pure and without chemicals.  As humans we need good healthy foods, pure water, and plenty of fresh air to breathe.  We do not buy fresh air in a can unless we buy oxygen.  But we can and should breathe the fresh air outside in our yards that is constantly being cleaned by the trees around us.  Use no spray, because spray does not stay in one place.  It can and will float through the air and you will breathe it just about any place in your home. 

When we become very conscious that clean and pure food, air, and water are the standard health concepts that are designed into our human body, we begin to take better care of ourselves, we begin to live a healthy life, and the energy expands within our soul which increases the energy within our human body and mind that we relate to as health.  As we begin to love ourselves, our mind, heart, and body begin to open to the beauty and joy of who we are and we see that we are designed as a child of Earth and it supports us to live as a child of the Earth.  Of course as humans we live in houses, which encourages us to keep flowers growing in our house, fresh air in our homes, and supply pure water that we can drink.  We need to spend some time outside working in the dirt and breathing deeply of the fresh air as we soak up some sunshine.  We are beings of Nature, and Nature supports us in our health and happiness.  We can bring some of Nature inside to help us keep our air clean.  Most house plants and flowers do a good job of helping with the inside air.  Most air fresheners are unhealthy for our lungs so it is important to know what you are buying and how you can use it appropriately.

Eat only organic foods and drink only pure water.  If you have a well, have it tested to make certain that it is drinkable.  We also have to breathe only fresh air.  We do not make the air in our house fresh by spraying air freshener.  Open your windows and let the outside air in, especially if you live in a clean and open area.  Air fresheners can be toxic so be very careful what you are buying.  I prefer open windows to any air freshener that I have ever found.  Create a cross ventilation in your home by opening various windows in your house and letting the natural air blow through your rooms.  Turn off your air conditioner first, so it is appropriate to choose the perfect days in the Spring and Fall.

Once we can accept that we are a child of Nature, we begin to understand the meaning of using Nature to heal us and to maintain our health.  The three most important aspects of Nature are clean Air, Foods, and Water.

In the Beginning: Our Angels Within

In the beginning we had no physical matter to ground us to the planet Earth because Earth itself did not exist. But we existed as spiritual energy, which in itself was part of the whole of the energy of Creation. We remain forever a part of the whole of Creation and we remain forever energy. Our physical matter is an assumed state for our spirit and it is a constantly changing state that we choose to enter and to leave in our spiritual quest for energy expansion. It is our energy expansion that supports change within the Universal system of energy, which is known as God. God, Yahweh, Buddha, Allah, The One, and others are only physical names that are used as a label or identifier within a culture or sect.

Names allow the culture or sect to speak to the same energy force if the intention and image forms a trinity of energy with the identifying name. Names are important because it not only directs the energy of the mind but it selects out the energy of the mind. When the mind energy is not being sent within a positive energy field of equality it does not affect the Creative energy but stays within the cosmic shield of the individual mind. 

When we began our path of human evolution as spirit beings we had already lived within the spiritual hierarchies and gathered within our own energy fields the positive, ethical energy of our spirit. When we chose to come to Earth it was our intention to learn to use our spiritual values equally in our physical experience as energy as we do in our spirit experience as energy. Our sojourn into the physical is essential to our growth because we are a trinity of spirit, soul, and physical energy, which must be developed equally within our spirit values.

Therefore, the primary soul lesson of our multiple physical experiences is equality and our primary physical lesson is the unconditional love of self that we learn through our soul lesson of equality. The lesson for our spirit is the balancing of our positive, ethical energy in total equality throughout the trinity of our spirit, soul, and physical energy. When our spirit is balanced in total equality as a trinity of energy we again merge with the Creative energy to expand the Creator or God.

As we pass through the multiple experiences of our physical lives we are attempting to grow as a soul into the understanding of our spiritual values of equality to balance our soul and our physical being with our spirit energy. As physical beings we have been living in the shadow of our mind, which blocks out the light from our spirit. As we have been growing within the embryonic part of our soul mind, which we have named our intellect, we have been learning to expand our awareness of what we don’t want in our spirit energy. The vision of our life from our intellect is equivalent to driving a car on a dark and rainy night. With our compromised visibility the images along our path appear to have a different form and character than they do in the brilliant sunlight.

Traveling through the spiritual hierarchies as new spirits we learned our Ethical Values of spirit in the same identical manner that we are now learning our Ethical Values as physical beings. Our first Ethical Value of spirit energy is unconditional love. We encountered this value during the time we were in spirit form as “seeds” of the creator living on the planet Mercury and we became “students” of the Archangels. It was important for us to gather together and experience the Ethical Values of our spirit before we became human. Without the experience of unconditional love within our spirit we would have been captured within other spiritual kingdoms during our evolution.

The Archangels that inhabited Mercury at that time were earlier seeds of the Creator that were created with understanding of their Ethical Values and were equal and balanced in their energy. As more generations of an expanded Creator were sent into spirit energy there was more to be learned before the physical part of us could be equally balanced with the spirit energy within us.

It was the spirit energy of these early Archangels that came to Earth as the “Christ” energy to provide guidance for humans on their path of evolution. Each of us have the Christ or Creator energy within us but it is this spirit energy of the Creator within ourself that we are learning to recognize and to use equally in our daily living. As we learn to balance our energies equally we will be evolving or expanding into the spirit energy of the Creator. As we become Christ like we will reach the equality of our physical, soul, and spirit energy that we are seeking as beings of integrated trilocular energy. It is our goal as evolving spirits to live within our Christ Consciousness as physical beings and become a repetition of the Christ Consciousness upon Earth.

Our goal of evolving into the constantly expanding “God” energy motivated us as infant spirits to begin our journey through the spiritual hierarchies, living and learning each lesson of our Ethical spirit. Once we learned our lesson of unconditional love under the tutelage of the Archangels on Mercury, we moved on to the planet that is called Moon and we began our apprenticeship with the angels to learn compassion toward all beings. As spirits we had to unconditionally love ourself before we could learn compassion for other spirits in their various forms of evolution.

(I will write more on this subject in an upcoming book on Spiritual Hierarchies.)

The Physical Consciousness and the Golden Rule

The 'Golden Rule' to follow in examining and changing the physical consciousness, the belief system of self, and the physical sensing response of self, is to do the thing that makes you feel good about yourself. All changes should make man better than before, happier than before, more accepting than before, and more loving than before.

These feelings will mold your ego into a loving ally that will continue its protective role. The difference that you will become aware of will be in the method of protection. You will no longer feel fear, hate, anger, and guilt toward yourself or others. You will look for the love within yourself and others. You will find the good, the supportive, the happiness, and the joy within yourself and your fellow man.

Your perception of the world and the Universe will change. You will see things more clearly than you have ever seen them before. You will hear the meaning in words that you never heard before. You will will develop a consciousness of the feeling tone within the air and within objects. You will feel the energy of people and, indeed, you will be able to 'see' this as well as 'feel' it, if this is your choice.

You will become aware of the consciousness streams that exist within the Universe. You can magnetize this energy to your physical consciousness when you need additional strength. You will smell, taste, and touch in a new and glorious way as you tune into the consciousness of the energy around you.

With the loss of the restrictive power of the ego, you will experience the power of the freedom to BE. Freedom is power. Freedom is of the spirit and soul of man. It is the true power of man. When the spirit and soul of man has the power of freedom from the ego, it has the power of creation. Releasing the ego power of the physical consciousness develops the power of creation from the heart, spirit, and soul of man.

You will find yourself in a state of deep peace and power. This power will allow you to heal the energy of others. This will not be an overt healing experience but a smoothing out of the soul energy for those that you are close to in physical proximity. You will 'feel' yourself reflecting love.

You will develop an acceptance of the Universe and its love. You will create constructively because of your new awareness of the power within. You will love as you have never known love before. This love will come from the physical heart, spirit, and soul of the self.

(Bridges of Consciousness, 195)